jaded justification

Monday, October 30, 2006

last night...

was way too much fun

taking a leaf outta betty's book because i enjoy lists too

-went to a party

-got a nice buzz

-flirted with the old love, 'teve

-smoked way too many cigs

-smoked me some hooka

-laughed harder than i have in a long time

-got home to an adorable IM

-had a conversation till 2 in the morning with the old love

-rekindled the old love...?

-definatly got really confused

-definatly had a good time. giggity giggity

Friday, October 27, 2006

decided to stop being a slacker and actually update *grimace*

these past few days have been a tinch stressful. AP classes up the wazoo. gross.

We're reading Hamlet in English and im actually enjoying it

i kicked ASS in my gov't debate today. One classmate actually called it a blood bath. yup.

i actually passed a pre-calc quiz. FUCKING. MIRACLE.

and i had to suffer through yet another intolerable pep rally.

and i saw mark. *sigh* he's so wonderful. i just want grab his face and kiss him all passionatly like they do in the movies. and then i turn around theres his wife! WHOOPS! just kidding.

skylar WONT STOP TEXTING ME. and then he called today and when i didnt answer he left a voicemail saying hey i thought we were still gunna be friends but you're not replying to my texts or picking up the phone so i guess you dont want to. No. really? see i was just ignoring you because i WANT you to keep calling and texting and bugging the crap out of me. and then he said he'd just keep trying to call. great. awesome. super.

been talking to brad more. looks like a promising friendship, hopefull something more!

went and saw Chapparel's production of the diary of anne frank..it was..interesting. ok, lets face it, compared to ours, it was liquid shit. but it surpassed my expectations of it being liquid shit on its own and was more like a nice long piss. lovely analogies eh?

tomorrow i have practice, audtions and then god only knows. sunday im hopefully getting drunk *crosses fingers*

thats an update of my life. no time to really go into detail about anything, nothing really that exciting to go into detail about!

take care everyone!

<3

Monday, October 23, 2006

so this weekend was SUPPOSED to amazing.

and really, up until around 12 on friday night/saturday morning, it was :)

i'll just list this as pro's an con's cuz i dont feel like going chronologically

pros:

friday: (yes i realize im contradicting myself slightly by going in order. shut up.)

made out with extremely hot guy we'll call mark

had half of a really good dinner

tried 3 new drinks

drove my daddys new G6 (its a beautiful thing)

hung out with a lot of really good friends

saturday:

got paid

did some more flirting with mark

had a cig

got one of the guys in the show i was working to put in a good word for me with his very attractive very single son (yes there is a reason there are two boys, just wait for the explaination) who we'll call brad

had entirely too much fun with the guy we'll call jake on the catwalk, he's just there to be useful, no emotions, lots of fun.

went to a party

had another cig

had a bit too much fun

when i was too tired to stay awake anymore i WAS going to go home but chris convinced me to take him for a ride in the car because, after all, it is a BEAUTIFUL thing and after going down the 74 once to make sure it was all clear we headed back up it at around 120 mph

left a ridiculous voicemail when i got home (because i was still having too much fun apparently) on marks phone

found out that a friend cared a lot more than i thought he did and was quite touched

went to sleep

sunday

hit up disney land, blew my entire paycheck on a pass and had fun, cuz it was fucking disneyland. what do you expect? i wont go into detail, we all know what disneyland entails

mark called about the voicemail i left concerned because i sounded upset. no sweetie, you mistook drunk for upset. had a wonderful conversation involving more flirting and possible hanging out BEFORE the next time im supposed to see him on friday. he's amazing. like so amazing he needs to get over the other obsticles of life and love me.
now for the cons

friday:

not really relating to friday but to life in general: mark is married. yeah, that'd be one of those obsticles. but he's not happy in the marriage.. but maybe he's lying. ick. he got married WAY too soon in life (he's 22 and they've been married 3 years) and he agrees. keep your fringers crossed for the home wrecker here people

at chilies the ex, we'll call mikhail cuz i dont care about changing his name decided to show up drunk, bring his very own beer after driving there and spill it all over the other half of my really good dinner on purpose and all over my jeans. ass. but it was kinda ok cuz afterwards many people were mad at him so yay. except i really didnt give a shit. that he did it thats

i didnt have any cigs with me to smoke on the way home

a scratch magically appeared on my dads car that I SWEAR I DIDNT DO and that he doesnt really blame me for but gives me crap for anyway. jerk.

saturday:

another ex, skylar, was in town from san jose and wanted to hang out, and by hang out he meant fuck which i wasnt interested in because i didnt want to because of censored reasons and because dear god the boy is obsessive.

the most recent ex, john, wanted to talk because things were awkward between us. well duh. we broke up. moron. things are gunna be awkard, not to mention that they were awkward while we were together because you hadn't been with anyone in 3 years and it showed. too much. and you were weird. and obsessive (anyone notcing a trend?) and even after we broke up and you started dating jill you are STILL obsessive. yeah, its awkward.

i didnt get nearly drunk enough because i had to drive home

sunday:

got woken up at 7:30 in the fucking morning by my mother who apparently hates me.

the rest of the day was pretty rad for me, not so much for rainie but its all ok now so its not even worth mentioning

i didnt do any of my homework, which is a pro for the weekend but was a con today

yay for first posts!