one good thing about nate

is that no matter how mad me makes me

no matter how frustrating he is

and no matter how much i wanna kill him

he's always the inspiration for some of the greatest stuff i've ever written

the latest: (you might've already seen it on the space)

so someone slice me open
can't stand this toxic venom
i'm having a hard time coping
phone vibrating in my denim
can't have his desolate words
in my blood stream anymore
erase everything i heard
wiped completely from my core
i can feel my skin crawling
from the echo of his grin
i come without him calling
he'll forever be my favorite sin

<3

Cass is a friend of breea's

who is friends with a lot of my friends

who goes to monterey

and works at bubba gumps

and who i've somehow never met through all of our connections

i just met her tonight

and she's amazing lol

one of those people you feel like you've known forever

my new drinking buddy, basically

i'm back in monterey

I went to deluz in temec, dunno if you've been there

had AMAZING rebound sex with nate.

i mean

AMAZING

and i might be making a trip down to LA for a little bit more of that

I can't describe the happiness i feel being back up here

It's just so much nicer than being in SoCal with all the drama

And all the people i know and blah blah blah

I just love it up here. It feels like home :]

Melyssa!! FEEL BETTER!

And em, feel...preggers?

<3

ummm

update?

but i can't really update

cuz really, I don't even really know whats going on

Eric came and lived with me

and it was good times

came back from school and...?

i dunno.

we're not together anymore apparently.

so that...sucks.

then i was gonna use nate as a rebound

which he was fine with

but then that fell through

so now i'm a little bummed

but excited from all the baby news from emily :]

<3