so i was thinking about this randomly the other day

and if i don't get a text from melyssa when em goes into labor i'm going to be EXTREMELY upset. just so you know whats expected. :D

life's going pretty mediocre lately

i put my two weeks in at work cuz i decided to go home for the summer, i'm just not happy here and i can feel myself slipping into my not happy place so i'm hoping a summer at home will help.

plus nate's there and the rent's free :]

but they said i could have my job back when i return in august so thats good!

tony's being a total douche. but then again i suppose thats just him adjusting to being hte ex boyfriend phase. He still hasn't grasped he's not my boyfriend anymore i don't think but whatever. We're trying to be friends....he's failing :D

i've been really sick the past couple days. Started with sore throat and then i was up puking all night on wednesday? i think? anyway the puking's stopped by my throat is ridiculously sore. i have big goops of mucus everywhere and a constant headache

excederin i've found is a FANTASTIC magical cure.

and i've been feeling less like my head is all clogged up. my brain's working right again :]

hung out with some friends last night and got high. and before you even THINK anything i haven't smoked since like march and i hated it then and i still hate it now. I thought maybe it'd be okay but no. i'm just uncomfortable high and i really hate it lol whateve!

so my last day is like the 23rd and then i'm home! hurrah!



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HO. LEE. CRAP.


i have so very much to tell you!


where to staaaart....


tony, HPV boy from work/firefighter (trying to make things clearer for you Melys :] )and i broke up. miiiight be getting back together but i'm not really feeling it. He's more drama than ME and thats saying something.

This past weekend was INSANE!
and SO MUCH FUN!

so i drove home because its Nate's birthday this weekend and i had work off anyway so i figured why the hell not.

Got off work Friday night at 11, drove 6 hours home and got to Nate's around 4:30 A.M.

then had hello nice to see you again sex until around 6 in the morning because he'd been sleeping and i was too tired to care :P plus i mean hello! sex is good!

OH i should add in tony was being a total girl and was never in the mood and frankly when you go from lots of sex to not being in the mood it doesn't work for me. So nate was a welcome change.

So sleep sometime between 6 and 7.

10:30-11 with not that much sleep in me i get woken up but a ski masked very large person who has a very large knife on my face whispering don't move. Nate's not in bed next to me and after the initial why the fuck am i awake and so rudely shock I look at my "attacker" and say John leave me the fuck alone i'm sleeping. The reply i got was but i haven't seen you in almost a year! MIND YOU I'M IN MY BRA AND PANTIES AND THERE'S NOT MUCH TO THEM. but whateve.

so after i try going back to sleep, it doesn't work, so i throw nate's shorts on and my shirt and frolic downstairs. to find Nate and John (John is Nate's best friend btw) downstairs.

The rest of the day involves preparing for that night, them smoking weed (I'm not a fan) and just chillin, hanging out.

What we did that night

(Please be sitting down and don't get angry :D )

We went to a rave (my first time!) and we were all on E (my first time!)

I WAS TOTALLY SAFE! DON"T BOTHER!

I only took one pill, i asked a couple of friends who have done it if they thought it'd be fun, if they thought i should, how much i should take, etc.

and can i just tell you i had a BLAST. definitely not something i wanna do a LOT because its like ice cream scoops out of the brain they tell me but on special occasions. TOO MUCH FUN. and really, a great way to celebrate Nate and John's birthdays.(they share one)

i could go into details about the rave but its basically what you already know, lots of crappy music that somehow sounds amazing on E, light shows that make your eyes burn all the next day, lots of friendly people, massages, kandies, dancing. Just general good fun. It'd be good CLEAN fun if the drugs hadn't been involved :P

I loved it basically, made a lot of new friends, everyone was really nice (go figure) and i made Nate promise he wouldn't leave me alone for a SECOND because i didn't want to get seperated and i didn't want to get RAPED. I WAS PARANOID PEOPLE! i'm pretty sure he held my hand the entire night, even waited outside the bathroom everytime i had to pee. FREAKED OUT when i was standing behind john talking to ashely and he couldn't see me, total gentleman, in a weird way.

And yes i remembered to drink water but not TOO much water and all that. And chew gum so i didn't chew through my jaw, blah blah blah blah

so around 4:00 in the morning I was tired, Nate was tired, so we went back to the car to sleep till the rave got over (5:00) and everyone else was ready to go home (we went in a group of about 8) and after discovering as tired as we were neither of us could sleep and frankly touching still felt REALLY good we had some lovely car sex.

Went home, passed the fuck out, woke up around 9, had some morning sex. Hung around the house all day tired as fuck (mind you i'm on about 6 hours of sleep at this point) and then when it was just me and him home we went in his backyard which is GORGEOUS and had sex outside on the grass (on a towel) which was AWESOME. never had sex outside before! plus it was sunny and laying there naked just felt good.

then i drove back home

SORRY this is so long. but really i can't tell anyone else this sooooo i'm getting it all out with you :D

and i understand that you still feel obligated to tell me how terrible E is. Go for it, i know your Mum instincts must be in full gear right now!

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