new years resolution my ass


i don't reallly have any this year..


meh.


so things are... fantastic. ha. no other way to describe them lately. im ridiculously head over heels in love. but i. unlike betty. will not gush. just know im increadably happy when im with him and im stopping there. no gushy. promise.


sooo update on banna's life (in list form just for betty)


1.been seeing mark about everyday. i love him. oh shit did i already mention that? my bad, just making sure you get the picture

2. got PLASTERED on friday night. PLASTERED. got up to 8 shots of vodka that i remember and apparently i had a shot of tequila somewhere down the line too? i dont really remember it...best part, absolutely NO hangover the next morning, went to bed around 5 got up at 9 perfectly fine and perfectly sober. gotta love irish blood.

3. left a really embarrassing voice mail on marks phone that goes on for (no joke) 3 minutes. me telling him i love him SO MUCH and i just don't know what i'd do without him. shit. was kinda hoping i'd not be so lame. but on the plus side he thought it was cute. said it made him smile that i was so passionate about it. sorry, the gushing is leaking again.

4.called ryan (mark's best friend whom i'm dating) 5 to 6 times informing him that i was. in fact. very very drunk. in fact i told him so many times that after the 5th time he got out a piece of paper and made a tally mark for everytime i told him. total score? 28. and each phone call lasted about 2 minutes. thats roughly me telling him i was drunk 3 times every minute. yup.

5.made many MANY other drunken phone calls. anyone else seeing a pattern here? i think we should take my phone away from me...yes? at least i kept my clothes on.

6. amazing sex saturday night. in a office building, part of the time on the desk where he works. come on now, i don't care if that's tmi, thats hot and you know it. and it was fantastic. only downfall would be the rugburns..

7. party at my house on new years wasn't a total bust, actually enjoyed myself a lot, got lots of kisses on new years. although none from the one person i really wanted one from but hey, thats what happens when you fall in love with a married man. you learn to deal with shit. he said he'd rather be kissing me so thats enough for me. agh the gushing..i apologize

8. i love him. and i kinda hate that i do. but at the same time...i wouldn't trade it for the world...does that make me crazy?

9. speaking of crazy i talked to mikhail. while drunk, of course. and then again while sober to clarify what we talked about when i was drunk. apparently i told him i was afraid i was crazy too. super. was actually a good conversation until he started talking about wanting to get back together. again. then it went down hill...go figure. ended with him bitterly hanging up and me sighing in frusteration. and yet.. i really just don't give a shit.

10. uhh.. i love betty. cuz um.. i can't think of anything else new with me but i feel like making the list a clean ten. yeah. im OCD too, i shoulda warned you


happy new years. here's to 2007, hopefully another kickass crazy year. i can't wait

<3