as promised, an update because, i did indeed, receive "the phone call"


but first im just gunna fill you in on life

oh and fyi i havent gotten a decent night's rest since tuesday night, apparently that would be a crime. bastards.

i belive we left off on wednesday?

WEDNESDAY

-went to bed at 5 that morning, woke up at 8 from a phone call from my dad. he found my cigs. shit. totally lied and got out of it, and actually ended up making HIM feel guilty about it. yup. im that good first thing in the morning. then i couldn't fall back asleep. lamesauces.

-had rehearsal at noon, it was a 12 hour rehearsal. everyone wanted to talk about the night before, i wanted to curl up into a ball and sleep. played apples to apples which is the best. game. ever. i totally won. multiple times. yessss

-around 7 i completely lost my shit and became an absolute emotional wreck. sat in my car for the hour and a half break and cried and drove around aimlessly and smoked 3 cigs. and burnt my hand. ouch.

THURSDAY

-breea spent the night and we egged cars. stayed up late, had lots of fun, giggled entirely too much and took adorable pictures. we're so terribly clever. OH and not really egged cars, we had post-it notes that said egg on them that we put on cars. we hit chris, carly, joseph, aj and mark.

Friday

-mock trial in riverside. boring.

-hung out with mark. just layed on the floor of an office building talking and cuddling. wonderful.

-went to a sleepover. with a bunch of girls from the cast. we attempted a prank on the boys that we failed miserably. MISERABLY. but it was fun. and i got to see mark AND ryan! woo...

-went back to the house after invading the boys apartment, after 2 of my friends left it was me, sarah(mark's sister whom i get along with), laura (mark's wife who basically hates me although to her knowledge she had no reason to), amanda(who likes ryan) and katie. and it became attack bri. and i was not pleased. good thing i got tough skin

-laura proceeded to bitch me out for talking to her husband so much, rightfully so until she went off on a tangent about how she thinks any woman who talks on the phone is trying to steal her husband. which you know, i already have but whateve, she doesn't know that and i didn't exactly plan it, its not like i intended for all this to happen.

-then laura asked what was going on between me and ryan. right. in. front. of. amanda. swear to god if i had a gun i woulda shot her right then and there. i said i didn't know and that we were just really good friends. laura said she just wanted to see all of her boys married off. to which i snorted and replied then you've got the wrong gal cuz im never getting married. which then proceeded to everyone but sarah telling me how wrong it is that i don't want to get married. like its my fucking duty or something. but at that point it was about 3 in the morning and the filter that keeps all the bitchy things i think from coming out of my mouth was long gone so i kept my mouth shut and didn't tell her that i didn't want to get married just to have it fail like hers did.

-she went to bed and things got better. jeff, sarahs hubby joined us and him, amanda, katie and i all stayed up and watched the sunrise around 7. sarah fell asleep tho. it was good times.

SATURDAY

-ajs suprise birthday party, he was suprised, it was mostly good times

-until mike and i got into a huge fight. after i leave for college im basically severing all ties and he's not so happy about it. he takes it personally and its not just him, im doing it with everyone. and its not like i wont talk to him once in a while, just not every night like i do now. lots of yelling, lots of tears, lots of no beuno, so i left the party early

SUNDAY

- practice at 5, nothing eventful, got my picture taken

-left practice early to go to a movie shoot for a film im gunna be in. nothing like huge, its and independent WAY low budget. but the guy making it is a good friend of mine and he's friggin brilliant. i'm excited. i get to be a bum. and im damn cute as one if i do say so myself

-shit hit the fan because amanda FINALLY found out about me and ryan. and she was all upset. but i pretended to care and now things are better between us. woo.

MONDAY

-this is entirely too long, im sorry

- first day back at school, blah blah blah, major suckfest

-practice tonight, saw mark *sigh of happiness* oh, and ryan was there too. whateve

-the phone call: what you've been waiting for i know. his plan is to start working his ass off. save money, get a place of his own, move out. come visit me at college whenever he can, pay to have me come down and visit, whatever. i love him. so goddamn much. the best part? when he leaves his current situation, he doesn't want to involve me, at all. won't bring me into it, not going to drag me through it too. and the weird thing is i want to, i want to stand by his side and take all the crap he's going to get. but if people knew that there was more to it, that i was involved, then it'd just make things messier. so i guess its better. but hot damn is he wonderful for wanting to protect me. i love him. so much. and it terrifies me. and i love it.


so thats my life! yay! lemme know if you want more details on any of this, i kinda skimmed over things to keep it as short as possible

<3