another new update so soon? fucking amazing!


i know right?


so the reason for this is because tonight has been way fucking eventful and i wanna remember as much of it as i can. shit went down!

stuff that happened. again with the lists cuz its easier.

1.erika's parents were out of town=party!

2.not all people who showed up were informed we were there to get smashed and were quite uncomforable

3. banna had about the equivilent of 1 and a half glasses of vodka mixed into drinks and such (when i say glasses i mean those plastic red cups)

4. all the other kids who did not have NEARLY as much as me totally could not hold their shit together like holy shit. fucking ridiculous

5. rainie, aj, mychal, erika, jill, nikki and jen all cried to me at some point during the night

6. i took better care of the drunk people than the sober people did while i was somewhere between drunk and buzzed. prolly more towards the drunk side

7. before the night went down the shitter mark stopped by on his way home. and we had a fantastic conversation about how "i love you. and for the first time i can actually feel the love, like inside my heart, making it feel all overgrown, in a good way. and how when i usually say it i mean it and all but its like im actually letting myself feel the love. i fucking love you...do you know how GOOD it feels to say that?!?" yeah. im fucking corny when im drunk. and yes, i even admitted that too. so now that i've totally just let the fucking gushy dam break, we shared some amazing kisses in his car. mmmm

8. rainie and mychal exchanged multiple kisses. problem? mychal's dating erika. oh, and erika is rain's best friend. and they also did it right in front of her. yup.

9. mychal lost his shit broke down crying was inconsolable and couldn't walk so we kept him in erika's room trying to calm him down while erika tried to hold her shit together enough to take care of him. she wasn't drinking, i feel awful for her, she had the worst night ever.

10. i took rain skinny dipping hoping the water would sober her up a bit and it also got her out of erika's hair and provided entertainment for the boys. whatever.

11. mychal wanted to talk to me so i went up and tried to calm him down. he was shaking all over and he was bawling. said he didn't feel good and he hated feeling like this (drunk) i kept making him take deep breaths and put blankets on him to keep him warm and a cold wash cloth on his head because it was burning up even tho he kept saying he was cold. i brought up funny memories which calmed him down a lot

12. aj and i got into it. after helping mychal i came downstairs and said to him this kids should not be drinking. they can't hold their liquor and they're totally losing their shit. his response? like you have any room to talk. umm last i checked i wasn't making out with my best friends boyfriend, i can still walk in a straight line and im not upstairs sobbing hysterically. i think im a bit better off

13. after one of my coworkers got dragged into the mess i basically bitched everyone out at the party except erika because she really did nothing wrong and i left around 11:30 (party started at 5)

14. went to visit coworkers and gave them the 411 on what happened

15. went home, talked online for a bit got invited to go out with coworkers because they'd just been with very drunk rainie whom one of them(andrew) was mad at so i snuck out and they came and picked me up around 2

16. we just sat in kevin's truck and talked until 4:30. kevin trying to get me to have sex with him the entire time. funny cuz andrew doesn't know we have sex. waited till we dropped andrew back off at his car and then we went at it. best with him yet. definate score

17. its now 5 in the morning. i have to spend a 12 hour rehearsal with all the people i was with tonight basically. this is gonna suck. fuck this shit

18. im in a suprisingly good mood.. wtf?


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