I've moved!

because everyone else is!

You can find me here! With a lot less !!


http://sunshinetimebomb.blogspot.com/


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iiiiiii'm updating!

does melyssa still read this and just doesn't comment? cuz i only get comments from em? not complaining just wondering.

p.s. her finger is gnarly. wow.

and kylan is SO DAMN CUTE.

okay. anyway.

so i've been debating back in forth between these two boys scott and thomas. i originally was all about the thomas but then scott came into my life and now im pretty sure i'm sticking with him. plus thomas isn't giving me the time of day and scott's being a total sweetheart.

like last night for example

(yes its cute gross stuff. shut up.)

i fell asleep while on video chat. except its not really video chat cuz he can only see me cuz he has no webcam buuut i can hear him. and he just plays music and we IM. and dear god does the boy have amazing taste in music. he's expanding my own tastebuds which is kinda the point. and im loving it of course.

so i fall asleep (accidently) and while that might be obnoxious or just a whatever situation for some instead i wake up to this the following morning:

4:20 AM
scott:I should get going, its 4:20. I'm sure your dreams are wonderful. I've played only the best songs for your unconscious. So I end it with the Beatles "Good Night".
Continue dreaming, beautiful. :]

i think he's a keeper.

we're gonna go see coraline this weekend and possibly start watching the first season of 24 which i've never seen and he is absolutely obssessed with. pictures soon if you want one.

love, love, love

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screw both of you for never updating like me :D

life's pretty boring.

only updating cuz i got into the vagina monolouges

and im demanding you come see it :D

that kid of yours is real cute. i miss him

aaaand you guys. duh.

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So its been like a month and i figured i'd update :D

parents took the news unusually well. I'm moving home in December.

Nate and i are on a break kinda.

blllaaaaaah

i'm just too busy and stressed out and overwhelmed to be in a relationship right now

and we both need to get our lives together

but we're not seeing other people

just taking time to breathe.

school is so painful to sit through

i'm so anxious to get out of here

and i'm depressed

i'm not sure if its my surroundings or me actually like trying to figure my life out.

but i'm really stressed out

and just lots of bad feelings

sssoooo i'm gonna start seeing a therapist on campus prolly.

i'm really tired like all the time

but whatev.

i'm working a lot. and when i'm not working i'm in class.

and when i'm not doing either...i'm drinking.

which is probably something you should be concerned about

cuz i am

so i think i'll lay off it for a while

my kidneys are all fucked up

its either a kidney infection, kidney stones or hemmoroids.

but they dont' know which one.

and there's no way for them to tell apparently.

its just kinda a dull achy pain constantly

sometimes it gets worse

its mostly just uncomfortable tho.

sooooo

i think thats everything?

i'm SO EXCITED FOR THANKSGIVING!!!!!

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please please PLEASE tell me that was you who wrote in my truth box?!?


p.s. haven't told the parents about the school plan yet...

...or the dent in my car...

:D

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iiiii suck at updating.

i'd say there's nothing exciting to update about buuuut thats a lie.

and i know that as two new mums you're NOT gonna be happy about some of this.

but lets keep in mind i'm in one piece, i'm healthy and mentally stable too

so no harm no foul right?

right. like that'll work.

so this summer basically considered of hanging out with nate and going to the gym.

i lost like 5 whole pounds going to the gym for 5 days a week for about an hour.

lame!

however i ate increadibly unhealthy lol

umm lets just get it out there. i did drugs this summer. obviously.

ecstasy a couple times. fun but not really something i wanna really DO.

smoked a lot of weed, continuing to do that ocassionally on the weekends.

tried shrooms twice, had horrible trips both times and hated it.

this past weekend i tried acid and actually had a lot of fun once i got used to the sensation. but i don't EVER want to do it again. im not sure i like where my mind went.

and of course alcohol.

now that i'm back at school i'm...miserable. i hate it here.

i miss nate, ive been down to visit him twice already

i only have class tuesday thursday so i'm working a lot

which of course sucks.

i'm gonna take next semester off, work and save up money

apply to UCI and Long Beach. Maybe Fullerton.

i wanna be closer to home, i'm extremely homesick

and my nephew is SO FUCKING CUTE!! i wanna meeeeeet him.

okay. i'm done. go ahead and start the scolding. :]

p.s. i quit smoking. for realsies. thats good at least?

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I SUCK AT UPDATING!

sorry!

okay sooo i'm back home

i'm together with nate

life's pretty damn good

my birthday was RIDICULOUS

haha

okay so the day SUCKED because of erica's wedding rehearsal dinner

i was running around the whole time

and my dad woke me up at like 8 in the morning

and we got into a full blown arguement about whether or not it was my birthday.

He didn't believe me that it was. grrr.

they forgot to bake a cake for me so they bought one

just a bunch of small stuff adding up to feeling like they didn't give a shit

and i KNOW that it was the day before erica's wedding and stuff

but it still sucked.

so nate said why don't you spend the night and i'll make it better

which is always a good offer :D

so i went to his place and we went and got more x ( i know, i know)

we each took two and just chilled at his house (which mind you is much safer than a rave!)

we played pool, watched movies, swam in his pool and just goofed around all night

it was SO much fun, and really what i needed for the night

things have been wonderful with him..he just gave me a massage the other night using oils that warm up or whatever

everytime i kiss him on the cheek or hand or where ever he smiles and says thank you

mushy mushy mushy

i'm happy :]

and bragging to everyone about my BEAUTIFUL new nephew :]

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